What If?

Asking 'What if?' usually means regret. It infers wishful thinking. The question dwells on uncertainty. I have found my mind wandering to this question a lot lately.

What if I continued on my path of a Biology degree?
What if I had stayed in a relationship with 'so and so'?
What if Miss C doesn't sleep through the night tonight?
What if I don't eat better and focus on me?

Most of the time, deep within I already know the answer. Asking 'What if?' stirs up self doubt, however, I have been comforted. I am more than grateful I chose the relationship path I did. My hubby is my rock and I cannot imagine life without him in it. If anything, reflecting on the past stirs fear...I see what could have happened. And 'What if?' turns into 'Thank goodness!'

Thank goodness for my amazing nursing degree and ability to stay home with the little ones!
Thank goodness I have been blessed with my hubby!
Thank goodness Miss C is cozy in her bed and sleeping soundly!
Thank goodness I am healthy and have plentiful food!

My mind wanders, but I have control to take a negative reflection and spin it using a different perspective. As hubby reminds me, 'Everything is relative.' We have to take everything with a grain of salt and look at the amazing blessings in our life...my children, my husband, my family, my job, food and shelter, and LOVE.

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I hope we can stand up against the harshest of judgement...our own self. Have a wonderful Monday!

Reflection

Last week flew by and all of a sudden it was Sunday again. We spent the weekend with family...just taking advantage of time together.

9/11 arrived so unexpectedly. I cannot pretend to know what it is like to make such an enormous sacrifice...the sacrifice that so many men and women made to save us and to preserve our freedom. So selfless and brave. I caught a few glimpses of the many television tributes, but found myself numb again. No words and I didn't really want to relive the feeling. There are so many that relive that feeling every.single.day. All we can say is thank you. God is good. All the time.